Honouring Fire
and taking my life back
“We dare not talk of the darkness for fear it will infect us.
We dare not talk of the fire, for fear it will destroy us.
And so we live in the half-light,
Like our mothers before us.
Come to the fire,
Feel it warm your skin.
Come to the fire,
Feel it burn your belly,
Shine out through your eyes.
Come dance in the fire,
Let it fuel your prayers.”
Lucy H. Pearce, Burning woman.
Recently, Fire surrounds me, within and without.
I see it everywhere. I recognize its power.
I acknowledge its presence, within and without.
It pushes me to breathe, to speak my truth.
Yet, the truth of the present moment is: this white page terrifies me.
I feel paralysed again, although I open this page to engage:
Because I need to.
Because I want to.
I want to engage.
I want to turn this fear into a creative act.
I want to honour the fire raging within me.
Fire to unleash my potential.
Fire to transform my life into a joyful one.
Fire to ride the waves of a tremendously exciting life.
Fire to embrace my ignorance.
Fire to regain knowledge of who I am.
Fire to savor the pleasure of being incarnated.
Reclaiming this Fire, honouring its presence,
is The Choice I want to make to take my life back.
A life of “Be quiet, don’t say what you know”.
A life of “Be content with what is, whether you like it or not”.
A life of numbing the fire with two decades of addiction.
A life of “Not good enough”.
A life of “How dare you be different”.
A life of playing small.
And today, my daring is very timid.
Growing.
For “growth is a biological imperative”.1
Now I have been invited to dance in the fire.
And I love dancing more than anything else.
Time for prayers.
If fire calls you, I invite every woman to explore the profound body of knowledge established by Louise LeBrun through her life’s work with women—the WEL-Systems body of knowledge—now safeguarded by Stela Murrizi, an extraordinary guardian and a mesmerizing dancer in the fire.
This is so good !
It's not easy to press “publish” yet publish you've pressed! And THAT’S the point.
The fire that you are calls you to engage the things that enliven you and yes, they are also scary. But what's the alternative?! It's a life you know well, and it's depleting.
So many women wait…and then a decade or two passes by, their voice compressed into the zone of the familiar, terrified of their own vibration.
I think the thing to pay attention to is not “how long” but the process of engagement…
So fucking good, Frederique… so powerful!